On the way to class today, I called my mom and she asked me a question that related to Thursday and for some reason I automatically assumed she meant tomorrow which meant today had to be Wednesday which meant, did I wake up and prepare every single thing to be ready to go on the air tonight if that's not happening until tomorrow???
I am 20 years old. I really genuinely thought this losing-your-mind was supposed to happen 40 years from now.
Is my Fear of Missing Out so bad that I've just decided to mentally skip days to avoid the reality that I can't actually do it all? Freud, help a sister out here. I do have Fear of Missing Out. I love crossing things off of my to-do list, but I hate crossing things out just because they won't get done. I really really hate that most of all. More on my to-do list here.
I stayed at work yesterday 2 hours past 5 p.m. I was logging the Michael Dunn trial closing statements. I didn't tell anyone I had plans to shoot a story last night. Phi Mu Alpha Sinfonia is a fraternity on our campus based in music, and they provide Singing Valentines on campus for 3 days around Valentine's Day. I love Valentine's Day and I wanted to shoot the story. I crossed "Singing Valentines" off of my to-do list in the worst kind of way. The just not gonna happen way.
I could've left work at 5 and let someone else finish the logging, but I truly believe a task is not over when you are done, the task is over when it is finished. I stayed.
That's my Fear of Missing Out. Some college students' Fear of Missing Out refers to missing a frat party or a trip to the beach, but mine requires missing work for more work. I do not mind it that way, but I fear it just the same.
Some days it's hard. Today. I go to class, class, class, food?, (outfit 1) hair, makeup, interview, (outfit 2) NewsVision, (outfit 3) and then I have 3 plans for 8 p.m. Which requires saying no to two of them.
Some days I really miss the pool. And Fridays are hard too because they play country music at the campus restaurant and if I am anywhere near it, it's a magnetic force that I lose all control over.
Yes I keep a physical to-do list, but I also keep a mental one. It has personal career goals of mine, big big dreams and some tasks that wouldn't even seem possible today. It has the serious stuff. I appreciated hearing from my friend that he thinks I will accomplish all of that, because I try to tell that to myself too.
Even if you don't verbally tell yourself or even mentally tell yourself, you have to, have to, have to believe in, understand and subscribe to the idea that the big list, the really important list, the list that actually matters, will only get done if you get up and do what's on the list today.
So my alarm went off at 8 a.m. today. And I got up and got to it.
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